Rant!

I'm starting to feel the pressure of last minute training. I don't really want to do anything but prepare for this race, but at the same time, everything around me is a hotbed of activity. Work has heated up for me and we have a company meeting next Thursday that's going to go until 10pm. I've been traveling for my job, meaning foreign cities and no time/place to train. Friends and family have been great at being here for me, but that also means that I feel pressure to actually spend time with them instead of blowing everyone off to train, which is what I really want to do.

That's right. I'm feeling incredibly anti-social and mean, even as I send out emails telling people to come cheer for me. That's selfish isn't it. But it doesn't seem fair that I can't train for this event that has come to mean so much to me. I just want everyone to stop telling me how much they want to see me until after 12pm on September 13th. I want to go to sleep at 9pm and get up at 5 and then train again after work. I don't want to go home to PA or to visit people in their own homes. I want to sleep in my own bed with my stupid cat who wakes me up in the middle of the night. I want to eat cereal and pasta and ignore meat. I want to eat GU every day because I'm working so hard.

I feel like I'm pretty social and friendly the rest of the year, so why can't I just have these next 10 days to do what I want to do? I'll tell you why. Because I'm too nice to tell anyone this in person. So I write it out in a lame blog.